Clueless

Whenever I think of writing a blog or even just write anything, all I can think of is this female. Julie Powell Once said "Sometimes, I can't help but wonder, is there anyone out there reading me? But I'm sure you are, aren't you? Somebody? Anybody? " .
So tat is exactly wht I'm feeling right nw. I'll probably keep writin even if thr r no comments, nolikes, & nt even a single person knows abt ths silly blog. Perhaps the first & the only thing that i'm very care-free about. It has so happened that I've alwys wanted a RESPONSE, to everything Isay, to every joke i tell, to every single word I say, I wantd a REPLY and sadly I always want to b the person who ends the CONVERSATION, or like some1 always said abt me "U alwys hav to end the talk, don't u?" Maybe, I do. I always thought that was the Human nature. 
So, this Julie female, of this wonderful movie called Julie & Julia. The movie that has made me fall in love with blogs,cooking, poached egg, learning french, understanding someone how they get annoyed and irritated and frustrated and still wanting be with you, because they want to, and support you all along. I know this is probably too much or very dramatic but I think I can do something that is not ME whch i don't do, usually! I've thought of it, bt thinking has become a very lazy part of me tat never works! I've seen quite a few blogs & bloggers arnd,& tht st does the inspiring part & yet I need help ! Yes, I do ! Hlp to knw what is actually going on, evrywhere!
Why is there something called mixed emotions, why can'teverything be hw I want it to be ,or why wnt everything just fall where they should ! Too much ? Well, this is just the beginning. I'm clueless as I write this "BLOG".

Its a beautiful Evening, listening to To the Sky - Owl City, some hundred+ songs on the playlist, waiting to be played and I cant wait to listen to all, and just be happy all over again. It seems like music is the only thing that is good enough for me. 

As I think, what to fill in this BLOG, I'm clueless, but ths is one thing that I'v decided to finish, if nt other things that i'm always hoping to finish! It is nvr the end for what I think. Makes me wonder, do all think and just let go of it ? Inspirational talk does work, well only for that particular moment, everything else just flies above my head! Trust me! 

This is the bad part. I keep talking one thing and I just take a Wrong-turn & talk entirely different things, it all changes in a matter of seconds. At home, there is every1 who keeps correcting me, or reminding me, what I have been talking earlier. So, yes .. This is Exciting, writing my first blog, I started off by writing about that person I care about too much, Anjali- It was like a dedication to her, then a few blogs, which Only I ended up reading ;) ! 

 

Two full months of vacationing & still many more months to come, no clue wht I'll end up doin or is it gonna be like those old days, watch TV, Fb, some nice movie,meet up some friends, & tat's the end of holidays! Fr once, its more than 2-months & good opportunity for me to do something different, and something tht I've been wanting to do, frm the longest time. The only problm being, I'm Clueless ! I don't think, there is any worse situation than this. My sis says "Follow ur Passion", Oh that's just one option ! I could even kill myself ! 

As I write this Silly-Blog, there are some friends of mine, who are busy Working, yes..I'm

Jobles as of nw, evn tho my name was clearly written in BIG BOLD letters on the banner near college gate..after I got job in a good-company !

"Sindhu - Placed in XYZ company ( Company name changed, since it is giving me full sad -ness and hasn't yet given me my joining letter ) " .

How cool is that ;) ?